To Amy Carlson

honor indebtedness grateful gracious appreciative heartfelt beholden

Besides being super brainy, a great dancer, a storyteller and an artist. Amy has a huge heart.  She has surrounded herself with people who she loves and love her.  They have been together since March 13, 2020.  They show up for her, for each other and for themselves.  They show up every day around 8:15.  No one has to knock to be let in.  They let themselves in, into their little boxes.  AND they dance, and they take time to breath AND THEN they talk, and they listen.  AND they really really would like to hug each other.  But they can’t.  They are locked in their little boxes by the pandemic.

Today is Thanksgiving.  This Thanksgiving has more hype around it than any other Thanksgiving.  We have been told by government officials to keep gatherings small.  Don’t travel.  Don’t spread that covid-19.  Don’t gather with your loved ones.   If you see more than two cars outside your neighbors house, report them. So much negativity around a holiday named “Thanksgiving”.

They showed up today.  About 15 of them, at Amy’s house.  They gathered in her garage and found their way to their little boxes and danced and sang “You can tell everybody this is your song….how wonderful life is with you in my world”  and “Thank you for being a friend…” They took a few minutes out to breathe, just breathe.  And then Amy asked for words meaning gratitude and they heard each other say: honor indebtedness grateful gracious appreciative heartfelt beholden…  .. And they spoke of their gratitude and their intentions to express gratitude.  There was no negativity, no fear, no loneliness, no self-doubt.  Because if there was, the love flowing from Amy’s big heart and beaming from her smiling face would chase it away, just as any sad feelings in her world be diminished by the reflections of love coming back at her.

“its Thanksgiving” she said.  “and you came”.

Yes we did Amy.  In gratitude, honoring each other, indebted, grateful and appreciative, with heartfelt thanks and beholden to many.

Published by Carol Clupny, author The Ribbon of Road Ahead: One Woman's Remarkable Journey with Parkinson's Disease

I am a middle aged woman with Parkinson's Disease. When I was first diagnosed I spent a lot of time researching the disease. Seeing a video of a man in the advanced stages of the disease attempting to get out of his chair and then "freezing" as he tried to walk across the room got me off my butt and moving. Great adventures on the Camino de Santiago and with TEAM Pedaling for Parkinson's across IOWA, as well as the day to day adventures of life have lead me to writing. My first novel, a memoir, was published early 2019. It is called, you got it THE RIBBON OF ROAD AHEAD. Living with the degenerative neurological disease Parkinson's, ULTREIA is a word that guides me. I have chosen it as the name of my business ULTREIA BOOKS. It comes from Latin and old French and means "unfailing courage". In the old days, pilgrims would call "Ultreïa" to each other as encouragement "Go up, go further!" Nowadays we would say "You can do this thing". It takes courage to live with Parkinson's. May I face each day with unfailing courage. Ab Here is more about me; I was living an active lifestyle riding horses, hiking, climbing and snow skiing when at age fifty I was diagnosed with Parkinsons. Retiring from my career as a speech-language pathologist I decided to “take to the road” to battle the disease. My first steps, walking out her door to the mailbox, lead to trekking over 1000 miles of pilgrimage trails on the Camino de Santiago in France and Spain. A dusty bike discovered in the garage resulted in four rides on the Des Moines Register’s Annual Great Bike Ride Across Iowa with the Pedaling for Parkinsons Team. These adventures inspired me to write a memoir The Ribbon of Road Ahead: One Woman’s Remarkable Journey with Parkinson’s Disease. I blogs about my everyday life as a middle-aged woman in the mid-stages of Parkinson’s disease. My honest, humorous, and casual narrative style brings the reader to an intimate understanding of my resilience and acceptance. My blog, sharing the name of my book ”The Ribbon of Road Ahead” can be found at After completing a Masters of Science in Speech Pathology from Eastern Washington University I received certification in School Leadership and Administration from Lewis and Clark College. I provided speech pathology services and later became a program director completing 32 years in the wide geographic expanse of eastern Oregon. Active in the Oregon Speech-Language and Hearing Association I received honors of the association and the presidential award for work on recruitment and retention of speech and hearing professionals. Il presented numerous papers and projects at local, state and regional professional conferences. I was appointed by Governor Ted Kulongoski to two terms of the Oregon Board of Examiners of Speech Pathology and Audiology, the state’s licensing and consumer protection agency. Since my diagnosis in 2008, I has become active in the Parkinson’s community as an advocate, an Ambassador for the Davis Phinney Foundation and support group facilitator for Parkinson's Resources of Oregon. I was appointed the regional patient representative for the Parkinson's Foundation’s Women with PD TALK study. In September of 2019 the Michael J Fox Foundation selected me to participate in the Parkinson’s Policy Forum in Washington DC. As an attendee at the World Parkinson Congress in 2016 in Portand, Oregon, I presnted a poster session examining the decision making process for patients considering deep brain stimulation. At the 2019 WPC in Kyoto, Japan I presented a poster on vision concerns of women with PD and lead small group discussions. Myr book The Ribbon of Road Ahead has provided many speaking opportunities for Carol. In 2019 and early 2020 she visited 24 support groups in Washington, Idaho, Oregon and California to share her thoughts on living well with the disease. In addition, she has presented talks for The Center on Aging in San Francisco, Parkinson's Place in Las Vegas, Northwest Parkinson's Foundation in Richland WA and virtually through their HOPE online program. In late 2020 I rejuvenated her voice and narrated her book. It became available as an audio book in 2021. As part of this project I read stories over the airwaves on RadioParkies Australia with DJ Madonna and in Great Britain with DJ Johnny Parky. She and her husband Charlie have two adult sons. They live on a small hobby farm in eastern Oregon. Contact Information: Carol Clupny PO BOX 128, Hermiston, OR 97838 (541) 720-4256

3 thoughts on “gratitude

  1. When you first read this to us on ASD I was overwhelmed, a rush of colliding feelings careened in my Parkinson’s addled brain. I can’t begin to explain about ASD. What it is, means, does, or how it is, means, does… To hear and read your words, to have them float down on me and melt into me, to have them capture this place in time, what and how it is… Thank you

  2. Count your blessings.” Name them one by one . I woke up, I am well, I can dance with ASD, I have food, I have family, I am loved………………………….etc.

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